whinybaby '11

it's a shame when a good job is marred by shitfuck employers

dog-whistle voiced mail order bride and her socially retarded, elephantine husband

these things wouldn't matter if they weren't such shitfucks

but they suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck and i hate them

and my hatred is so visceral, and i think it's giving me grey hairs and lines on my face, and making me an altogether hateful person. 
it takes so much energy to hate these shitfucks, but they fuck me over on the daily!

they take all my time.. so i will just have to seek employ elsewhere

and get my fucking mind back and maybe have fun or some shit

the tight feeling in your throat when you know you're about to cry.. that's another thing I hate and don't want to experience again for a long time. 

I don't want to feel disappointed in anything or anybody in my life, or myself. 

I don't want any bullshit no mo. 

i thought  summer was just ending but it's been smelling like winter outdoors at night

and walking through the door a spiderweb touched my eyeball

why do i assume the elevator will be at the ground floor when i hit the button (it wasn't)

and why do i assume the crumpled ball of brown paper at the foot of the stairs is a dead bird (it wasn't, it was paper!!!!!!!)

duuuhhhhhhh

i am the dead birdd!!!!

fuck shit fuck fuck shit

I'm 12!

I am such a fool 4 u

"linger" by the cranberries just took me back to Hornby Island during spring break when I was twelve.


oh, life!

so today a random person opened my apartment door.

I had just woken up from a nap and was on the futon watching tv. I was still groggy and I wasn't sure I heard a knock, but the second time I was sure and I got there just as this bro opens the door a crack and is like "hey.. I'm looking for [some name].

and I was just very confused and said "this is the wrong..." and couldn't remember the word for apartment. 

and I closed the door and the whole thing was weird. 

it's getting harder to separate nightmares from reality!

there was a little duck

pocket crumpet

a black and white sucker fish

a squirrel

and something else

the squirrel killed everything

lemongrass/chives

when I was unemployed for too long again I started watching a lot of Keeping up with the Kardashians. 

I was quite depressed. 

I started a tomato grow op in my apartment. 

I think things affect me that don't affect other people. I feel deeply connected to strangers sometimes. I feel sad when they don't treat me kindly.

john who flipped through the big cat book in the warehouse was grumpy and tired and I sat by him as I was waiting for candice to get to her office. he was a shit and no fun to talk to and I think that contributed to my quitting. though I would have anyway. it was a good day to quit. 

I don't like crying in front of people. 

I think about M and I'm very worried. I'm worried and I don't know how to contact her. 

on a side note, the manager at my work opened his mouth to answer a question about croissants and a huge glob of drool fell out and hit the floor. in front of a customer. it was amazing and I'm so glad I was there to see it. 

on a good day

banks

status updates

anne hathaway is sitting on the toilet looking through her legs at the water and thinking "why"

anne hathaway is drunk

anne hathaway is in an elevator with a stranger and all she can think about is grabbing the stranger's face and sticking her tongue in their mouth

anne hathaway is sitting cross-legged in the gravel on the roof of her apartment building and smoking funny cigarettes

anne hathaway is lying face down in the gutter and licking the muddy water

anne hathaway is in a hotel room staring blankly at the television screen and hoping to see her own face

anne hathaway is flipping through the phone book in a neighboring city and looking for "hathaway, a"

anne hathaway is dreaming that she is wearing moon shoes and jumping and punching babies in the clouds

anne hathaway is hungry for pasta

anne hathaway is smearing butter on her legs and admiring the shine

anne hathaway is cupping her face in her hands and tapping her eyelids

anne hathaway shrinks 87% and climbs into a croissant

anne hathaway bites her lip until she tastes blood

anne hathaway jumps out the window and feels the wind on her cheeks and fingertips

dreamz

there was string or floss or something between my teeth and when I pulled it out, one of my upper back molars came out with it. I was shocked and I held it in my hand and didn't know where to go or what to do. there wasn't much pain/ the root of the tooth was meaty and a bit bloody. 

I woke up in bed sleeping on my left side, facing a fucking huge ass lion's face. the lion was sleeping and breathing deeply. I felt calm at first, in a sleepy stupor, and then I realized there was a lion in my bed with his paw resting on me. I remembered that lions are scary and I got scared and tried to get away slowly without waking him up, but he did wake up and he sensed my fear and his claws dug into my arm. 

something about Jim Carrey. 

vibrant cock

vom vom

here is sixty dollars of black and tan

feel both redundant and vital to the overall success of the store

am one of the little people, but i massage the money

hate talking to people.

hate making eye contact with people

no longer give people the 'benefit of the doubt'

doubt many people are overall 'good people'

when i was on ritalin i would hold intense eye contact for uncomfortable periods of time

i did this once in a job interview and the interviewer commented on it, 

i hadn't noticed that i hadn't blinked in like five minutes

i want to cut off my hands and hurl them at the robot voice

i want to push over the machines and dump clothes on the floor and roll in the piles of clothes

i want to make a huge fucking mess and not give a shit because i will be the the one who is always right

i want to scream something and then leave

pay me in used monopoly money

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